Carpe Diem

I have been reflecting a lot on life recently having taken some intensely connecting yoga classes in California. One of my favorite teachers, Jonathan Reynolds, was talking about living in the moment and how often times fear stops us from doing things and in being terribly cautious you are not living but already dead. My grandmother has recently taken a turn for the worse and seems to have terminal cancer so say the doctors. I was sad at the prospect of losing her but then I remembered that everyone really is in the process of dying. It is sad to be so bound to the future and the past that you are not allowed to enjoy the present. Life is too short to treat others without respect or to worry incessantly about things. I spent all day yesterday being in love with my beautiful city of San Francisco. It's strange but I never noticed there were flowering trees there before outside of cherry blossoms. I guess compared to Boston and the east coast where almost all trees are seasonal and flower it fades into your memory and hides itself with that sock you can never seem to find. I was disturbed by not being so present and forgetting something as important as the flowers on the trees. Jonathan also mentioned something else quite interesting as we were waiting for someone to come into the class. He asked himself and us, what we were waiting for exactly. I thought about it and smiled thinking, when you spend all of your time waiting you are never really there. You are somewhere in the future.

I will try to keep Jonathan's words of wisdom close to my heart as I return my energy to the capitol of the US and all of its frustrations. There is always a positive outlook on a situation regardless of what it is.

As the airplane pulled in this morning I saw a gorgeous thin sliver of a moon winking at me low on the horizon. The sleepless night on the plane was all worth it just for briefly enjoying the moon's splendor. It is very definitely spring here with the magnolias, pink and white, cherry blossoms and other trees partying like mad with flowers in their hair.